First of all, I have a mindset in my mind to just help my family after all the bad decisions that I have made for myself. I decided poorly with regards to the blessings that I have encountered in my life. I have been given the privilege to be on the spotlight and to be worshiped but all that is a waste for me because there was no formal agreement on this there is only heresy and mockery and gossip. Only manipulation of my brain and belittling and shame and death. But I fight all this because I'm not yet ready to die. In the midst of all this trouble, he came back again in order to help me and fight in my side. Suddenly, help kept on pouring in, even though my life was still in danger but still there are friends from the outside who wants to rescue me. I wanna say thank you for the friends from the outside who came to help me and have prolonged my life. I cannot pay you in cash but I want you to know that I learned because of you guys. I wanted to repay you with all of your kindness in this letter. You already know who you are. I want all of you to know that you got a special place in my heart and that I will continue to live.
Well, in the first place, it is all my fault because I have fought the wrong side. It is because I stand firm on the faith I have found since 2005. Maybe if I am not stubborn there would have been no problem for me. If only I have obeyed them my life would have been easier but in fairness to me I have cooperated with them to the best that I can but I am abused, what they want for me is to die. Thank you for all the haters at least I learned how to be strong and most of all I am sorry for the mistakes that I did to you. I admit that I am the first one who committed mistake against all of you and I deserved to be punished but the death that you wish maybe I'm not yet ready for that. I know that you will not accept my apology because for you I am just a trash and a nobody, well, I will not be persistent to make you like me but still I wanna say sorry. I am not asking for you to like me, I just want you to know how I feel. Maybe you will feel that I tricked you but I want you to know that I just did all that I can in order to live.
I wanna say thank you for all the kindness that I have received and also thank you for the haters who have helped shaped my personality.